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It was killing my heart to watch how he treated my team. It didn’t really matter how horrible and unprofessional he treated me. But when it comes to my team–I am a mama bear. I can go from sweet and kind to crazy woman about to lose her mind in a split second when pushed too far–and my limit was about to be reached . . . At times like this what would Jesus do?
It was one of those extremely difficult days. I took a team to staff an event and we were working under a person who was nothing short of a bully. His goal was to either make us or break us. He singled out the ones who he thought he could badger or intimidate enough to make them cry or lash back just enough to get themselves fired.
I was in a really complex situation and torn between wanting to serve the client, hoping to keep the peace and wanting to represent at many different levels.
Mostly I wanted to avoid conflict but I knew I had to stand down and make caring for my team a top priority.
What should a leader do in that sort or situation? Where does my faith overcome my fear? What would Jesus do?
In hindsight I know I did everything I could to stand my ground and to keep my team from giving up. I have seen too many others simply walk off from a job under far less difficulties or difficult situations.
But not my team. We strive to have a good work ethic. My team holds up under pressure. My team sucks it up and endures. My team works hard. My team represents. My team gets through to the other side. My team is a strong and resilient, it is an awesome team.
And all of this is not because of me. I am not the one who leads–we all lead each other. We know we are flawed and full of weakness.
Me? I am just a gypsy, a vagabond, a scribe in search of a story. I am just a teacher and a student of life. I am just a girl who got to the end of her rope and cried out “Lord send me. Lord use me. Lord equip me to go and do whatever You would want me to do.” A vagabond nomad with a really big heart.
I am scattered and often incapable of knowing what to do or how to handle situations. I am easily stressed and too often it shows. I know I am a mess at times and I am not ashamed to admit it.
That’s why I rely on my team, my God and my inner strength to get through whatever life sends. I want/need a partner and a helpmate to keep me stay focused and to lighten the load. I want/need a strong leadership team to catch the vision and to help me build this ministry. I cannot do it alone.
I am so grateful that God has sent the right people into my life to help bring this work and this mission I’m on to life. They, too, have caught the vision and together we have the hope and endurance it takes to rise up and carry on.
The Bible tells us that people perish without hope–and if there was just one thing I would want to say my ministry and my mission is all about it is in giving people hope. That’s the focus of my writing and media work; it is the reason why I respond to disasters and it is the foundation I build upon when staffing an event, serving a client and finding a team to do the work.
Mostly, I am totally reliant on a power much higher than myself to get me though each event, each mission trip, each step along the journey of my life.
I am a “but for the grace of God go I’ kind of girl. I am transparent and I talk too much. I let my feelings show. I often appear to be far less capable than I am. I give in too easily and my heart often gets me in trouble because I want to properly care for everyone I meet–family, friend, lover, team member, client, man on the street.
I believe in scattering kindness and showing Christ-like unconditional love. I may not always do that but I know I try.
Meanwhile, I realize I can’t be caretaker to the world. I realize its a very fine line between healthy love and compassion verses co-dependency. I have been on both sides of that coin. And that’s why I need God’s strength and wisdom and comfort and peace and guidance and direction and help and discernment and confidence and wisdom and so much more every single day and especially in the work and ministry I do especially on days that put me around difficult people and complicated situations.
Sure there are moments and days when I would much rather give people a piece of my mind than a bit of my heart but on those days I become even more determined to push through and carry on. On those days my greatest prayer should always be simple and clear: “Lord have mercy and help us all . . . “